Hi everyone! We are in Pontevedra
yesterday. We had a fairly quiet ride, few people on the road and the rain made us company. But today we can say that we had a day quite gray. Not only for rain but because the theme of the day was the goodbye. That goodbye to you can not escape. One of the grandmothers of Manoel is entered, this is 4 soon and the prognosis is not encouraging. Moreover
his father's heart is not right, it's actually a "normal" has a heart valve in a while but like all "sick" should take special care. But he thinks he is indestructible. And here I had to do this telling, at the request of Manoel, so my dad came to an end. Because we all feel they are not going to happen, we all believe that we are special and one day those around us are crying.
Today is 17 and my father is more present. I'm sad to have it so far, but all tell me that now is on my side that will not comfort me. It's crazy to think about how time passed. There are now 9 months. And to think that a month before we talked about the death of one of our best neighbors who also had heart problems. I remember very well have said: "You take care I love you Dad for many years more "And he told me." Stay calm. "And we see that to no avail. It was before we came back to hug. May it be true that there is something beyond this life. Before I believed and that gave me hope. Unfortunately no more to my dad made me change my mind. How sad to have lost faith. It makes me very angry.
Yesterday we had to go looking for Manoel's sister church, did not want to go but did. We got to the saint and then the Our Father. Although I prayed as I did before I could not help doing it from within. I wanted to feel like before but was not the same. I was denied. do not go along because now I'm not in communion with God as to do so. I do not know again feel the same, maybe better, maybe just think we are not alone. Although I intend to believe again that God is with me, that takes care of my loved ones and my dad is in a hope that one day you come back to embrace.
How hard is is making me live apart from God.
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